This Bathroom

Today was the first morning spent in my new bathroom. I have it all to myself. I have a shower that only I wash within, I even have a toilet that... well no guarantees on that one.

Little sis has moved on.

It is odd however. This was the bathroom I used for 11 years before I moved out a few years ago. This was where I brushed my braces, lost my retainers, figured out make-up, battled with curls, and discovered washing your face before bed saves your skin from pimples.

I was a little slow on this one.

My mom kept telling me to wash my face more.

I wonder if I was just trying to stand for my independence

or I'm secretly incredibly strong willed.

Some of the best teenage angst-filled arguments between sisters were fought in this bathroom.

But on the flip side, this bathroom has endured the after effects of some of the saddest days in my life.

This was where I unpacked my things after I realized my dad died while I was frolicking around Mexico...

and this was the mirror I stared into blankly with a numb heart after I lost all the purity I tried to save.

Pretty much, this poor little bathroom endured my silent ways of dealing with all of those new regrets I collected like pokemon cards.

I actually never played Pokemon..

and I will be honest and also confess, I don't get it.

I mean... the rules. Or how you win. Or if you win...

So I'm back. To this bathroom. Same girl, new life in Christ. (Thank GOD)

This will be my last week before school begins! I am spending most of it working at the restaurant in a panic, hoarding the money I make in fear of not having enough.

I was reflecting and budgeting in bed this morning after devotions...

Because devotions in bed is the best thing ever.

Wake up, roll over, and read...

it's great.

I actually contemplated getting a lap desk so I can do EVEN MORE stuff in bed!

Like homework

EATING

comfortable laptop typing

drawing! Yeah, I'll draw more!

Card making

Planner organizing....

But then I realized I should pace my nerd-growth

and did not buy a lap desk.

Anyway... I became really disappointed in myself. Money was always been there for me, God has blessed me with a job where making extra dollars comes easly. I have been able to travel without asking for assistance, and kept the loans for school on the small-ish side over the years

But this year I really over-estimated my grants for school, and for the first time I am looking at the money that needs to be there, and realizing... it's not there like it used to be!

But here is today's whip-lash:

“Trust me, and don’t be afraid; for I am your Strength, Song, and Salvation” -Jesus Calling

Pretty much, I'm just going to be responsible and trust in God.

this will mean more sack lunches and less bagels at school...

no lap desk...

probably no more cute underwear shopping...

and I vow to ONLY get coffee at school if I have a mug for it (only a DOLLAR! for refills!)

Because I refuse to worry about this... much... and besides it's kind of fun. Ya know? Life requires a LOT MORE creativity when you don't throw money around, and I cherish creativity in all it's forms so very much