This time of year, can be a little rough for me. I do believe twinkly christmas lights are amazing, and the message of Jesus coming to earth is so profound, but I have had a history of saving the most epic of mistakes for this time of year. Choices and situations that created a lot of unpacking for the new year to come.
So this Christmas season I feel like a woman who is cautiously walking on egg shells with her guard up, just waiting for the next battle with a sheer determination to WIN whatever the heck it is....
Rest assure, nothing has happened yet. I have had horrible dreams that almost convinced me something bad happened by the time I woke up, but in the real world, all is well.
I just realize walking around like this, and living life constantly guarding your heart against everyone, is exhausting, and probably not necessary... and causing distance.
I am excited however to finish my exams, and get cracking hard core on my gift making. About 80% of my gifts this year are hand made... my favorite way :) So from next week wednesday, and probably until New Years, this girl will be at her sewing machine or kitchen counter piecing together my gifts.
Ok. Back to those exams...
